I have spent a lot of time the last few weeks feeling terrified of the future. And I know, as a christian, that I don’t have to be scared. I also know that this life is only temporary. It is not meant to be the place we long to be.
So, why then, do I put so much value on my current circumstances?
Why do I let the enemy put awful thoughts into my head? I have read books on how those thoughts aren’t from God. And that I don’t have to accept them. That those thoughts are not where I am meant to spend my time dwelling.
2 Timothy 6-8
For this reason, I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self control.
How powerful is that verse?
Through the Holy Spirit, we have God in us. A God that gave us a spirit of power, love and self control. And what is more powerful than love? God given love.
I forget so often that I have a testimony. A testimony that can stand against any words that the enemy can throw at me. My story depicts His love and faithfulness over and over.
And the hardest to fathom part of my journey? That there are parts of my testimony that I won’t get to know on this earth. He has been saving me from my own choices, and the choices of others in ways I don’t even know about.
The parts of my testimony that I know and can share are often astounding to those I choose to share them with. I have instances of bills being paid when I was in danger of losing my house in ways that can only be explained by His love.
I have circumstances that could only be healed by the One who heals the broken and then uses them to heal other broken people. He lets us be an example to others who are struggling. We get to become a light of hope through no power of our own.
One of the gifts that He has bestowed upon me is noticing. I have, on more than one occasion, noticed when someone is hurting that others often gloss over. People in pain that pretend good enough to others that they don’t have the chance to work through their pain. I get to notice them, and give them a shoulder. I can share my testimony with them.
It seems so obvious to me that if I can use it to lift up others, why do I not use it to fight the enemy? Why do I give over that control when I don’t have to?
Friends, I know that you all have a testimony. Your life hasn’t been easy. We have all struggled. And we can all look back and see where God is the only explanation to our problems being resolved. Even on the days where it feels like we will never, ever climb out of the valley. I pray today that you would look back at your story and witness to yourself His faithfulness. Write it out if you need to. And whenever you begin to feel defeated, read it Feel His love. And know that you are not alone.