I had a pretty cool experience last fall, before all of this craziness started. And I haven’t been able to get it off of my mind lately.
Picture yourself sitting by a lake on a cool, frosty morning. You are sitting in a circle with a group of women, some of whom you know, others you haven’t met yet. There are about 20 ladies of varying ages, and each of us with different stories.
And then someone brings out a guitar and asks you all to sing workship songs. Without the lyrics in front of you. And your heart starts to beat faster and faster.
You DON’T sing in public. And without the proper words on some type of screen?!?
Well, if you let go and just sing, it can actually be pretty cool. I didn’t grow up with a Christian background. I grew up singing rock and country, not gospel. I knew some of the words to sing, but not all of them. And I’ve been told I have a less than perfect singing voice.
The thing is, no one asked me for perfect. All I had to do was be willing. Willing to worship, and join my voice with many others. And my voice didn’t stand out. At least, no one complained. 😉
I couldn’t help but wonder as we were sitting there, being stretched out of our comfort zones, how often God only asks us for our willingness. I’m sure you’ve heard that God equips the called rather than calling the equipped.
And it’s just that easy. We were the ones to put the desire for perfection on us, not Him.
While my bible certainly says to strive for my best, working cheerfully for my family and to contribute to the kingdom, never once does it tell me I have to be perfect.
It actually tells me I’m not perfect. That was the job of Jesus. He was sent to encourage us that times will be hard, we will be challenged, but that He is the only way to make our lives work. To put Him first and let God work out the rest.
So why do we spend our days, weeks, months and years beating ourselves down for something that we can truly never attain?
My friends, could we all just agree to stop this here?
Can we start off our mornings asking God to prepare us for the day ahead?
After we finished our worship, I got to see a little into the hearts of these women. And they are precious.
God gave us each individual strengths and weaknesses for a reason. Because we are meant to do this life together, contributing and pouring into each others lives and complementing their weaknesses with our strengths. Not looking at that “perfect” family and trying to be them.
My voice, while certainly imperfect, and unsure at times, was exactly what it needed to be this morning. Pure. Filled with awe that even while there are a plethora of days that I feel like I fall so short, He is enough. He will fill in the important things. I just have to be willing to trust. To take that step, no matter how much I want to control it, of just letting go and letting Him figure it out. The days that I’ve woken up and handed it all over to him work out so much better than the days where I run myself ragged trying to do it all myself.
Heavenly Father, I thank you today for all of the gifts you have given me, especially the ones that I take for granted. I thank you that you have trusted me with these beautiful children, and that you are there to fill in any holes that I leave behind. I am so blessed that you love me, even at my worst, and I pray that you would fill me with the grace you have shown me so that I may show it to those around me. Help me to see the important steps I need to take through your eyes, not the eyes of the world. And help me to see the people around me as you see them, imperfect but beautiful each in their own way. I pray that we could all let go of the notion of perfect and concentrate instead on using our gifts to bring truth and love to those around us. In faith I pray this. Amen.